That Widow

Day 24 and I was asked what I was doing with my husband’s car because another family member would like to have it if I wasn’t doing anything with it.

This hurt. This hurt a lot. Why ask? I already told everyone that the car was paid off and my husband wanted it to go to our oldest son. I drive it in the interim when I don’t have all of the kids but the point is it’s mine. It hasn’t even been a month. It hurt. It hurts.

Talking to a school psychologist for our 4th about testing him for speech and she’s asking about any major life changes I’m like well my husband died 3 weeks ago. Her face fell and I’m just like mmmhmm you walked right into that one, no one warned you.

Made a post about my husband tonight and his mom took over the comment section with how no one understands how much she misses him and how much she loves him and I’m just like “hi, have we met? I’m his wife and mother of his 6 young children”. Please make your own Facebook post about your own personal grief.

Day 24 while not terrible, still hurtful. Too many people wanting to take or overshadow. I know I sound bitchy I’m just over a lot of it.