That Widow

Day 66 and I bought the van and it’s my dad’s birthday who just so happens to be with my husband.

It was a rough go of it today. I bought the van. It’s a really nice van. It’ll last us for a good long while. It drives like a dream, as it should. But it’s still overshadowed by him not being here.

Today also happens to be my Dad’s birthday. He’s my step-dad, technically, but he was there from the time I was 6 until my parents divorced when I was 20. He hated to make me cry lol he would yell at me for something and I would cry and 5 minutes later he was there explaining why he yelled and how to not do whatever it was I did wrong again. It drove my mother nuts! Lol I’ll never forget when he asked if I smoked weed, “I know your brother does, but do you? I’m not going to tell your mom anything because we both know how out of proportion she takes things” no, dad, I don’t smoke weed, “ok, have fun while you’re out tonight”. And that was the end of that lol I miss my dad but it’s such a different experience as compared to missing my husband.

Day 66 and I bought a van and sang happy birthday to my dad in heaven.