That Widow

Day 68 and it’s another football packed day.

It was the last game of the regular season today so now we wait a couple of weeks to play in the playoffs/championship games. Both teams are actually really good so we’ll have to see how it shakes out.

My in laws have changed churches until our current one comes around to allowing female members be a part of the service again. I don’t think I’ll really ever go back to practicing religion. Unless my husband were to come to me and tell me that I needed to, I think I’m out. There is no God that is merciful, just, loving, forgiving, and all of the other things when he took away my husband. Some would say that cancer is just a random luck of the draw, ok then why would your God allow it to be created in the first place? Fine, it was created why would your God not allow a cure to be found and shared? I have too much pain to want to be consoled by those that are going to tell me that God loves me and it happened for a reason. You’re pretty evil to take away a husband and a father to 6 very young boys.

Day 68 and I’m waiting for the Bible Crusaders to come at me.