That Widow

Day 80 and I’m trying to set boundaries.

His family asked if I wanted to go on a Christmas train ride with my boys. To most this sounds cute and like a good time, to me that sounds like hell trapped in a train car with 6 boys by myself. Yes, they would be there, but it’s not really my kids’ type of thing.

I’m also not ready to be around all of the couples and to see the other kids have both of their parents, including my sister-in-laws. Everyone has their husband/wife, mom/dad, and then there’s me and my kids. Just me and my 6 boys. I’m not there yet and I’m not doing things that I’m not ready for. They asked, I said no, then they asked 2 more times. I’m not repeating myself anymore. I gave an answer and that should be good enough and keep it moving. I’m also not explaining myself anymore to anyone. I don’t need to keep ripping my heart out for you to shut your mouth.

Day 80 and boundaries, accept them.