That Widow

Day 84 and my bike ride was more emotional than I signed up for lol

Where my bike is I am in the same room that he took his last earth-side breath in. The wind-chime that was made for us with his face on it is right outside the window and constantly makes noise. I’m surrounded by him and I like that. I get up early and typically get my ride in before the boys wake up so I talk to him and have those personal conversations like we used to have with just us.

Today though that playlist was hitting hard. I thought I signed up for a poppy 2000’s ride and it was like get in your feels 2000’s ride. It was rough. Between Pink “who knew” to Michelle Branch “Everywhere” or Katy Perry “Never Really Over” I was just like dang Peloton! Give me a little warning or a dang break lol it was just rough.

Day 84 and I had to get my shit together so I could ride my bike and get my sweat on NOT my sob.