That Widow

Day 118 and I’m going to do it.

I made a list of places that I either need to call or go to so that I can get some things handled. I’m terrible when it comes to talking to people, especially a business. I’m just not motivated to speak to others. It’s exhausting navigating social interactions at this point. 2 big ones are on that list though. First I stopped at the lawyers after I dropped the kids off at school. I had to sign paperwork to get the deed to the house only in my name now so I can send that into the bank to finish with the whole mortgage saga. What a nightmare that whole process has been. Then I’m starting the paperwork to get a transfer upon death drawn up so if I die the house will go to my brother until the boys would be of age. My hope is that it would make it a million times easier to handle the house if I die as opposed to what I had to go through.

The biggest phone call was to set up an appointment to go to the monument maker place. The oldest asked if his dad would have one and when that would be so I told him I would get started on it. They only pour them twice a year where we live so if wouldn’t be started until the spring and then placed maybe in summer? I’m not bothered by there not being one yet, since I know where I put him, but if my kids want to see it, then I’ll walk over the fires of sadness that it brings me to make them happy or to bring them some peace.

Day 118 and when my kids ask I do everything in my power to make it happen.