That Widow

Day 121 and I guess I just never really paid attention.

I went to target today and I headed back to their Christmas workshop area. Every year we would all go and look at all of the fun Christmas candy/junk food. We would inevitably buy a crap ton of it and then get more of the same junk come Christmas Day from his mom. Today I looked at it and nothing even excited me. I just walked away and went to look at the kids clothes. Such a after thought of was that progress of making better choices or avoidance because it’s what we used to do together? I don’t know, for today I’m choosing to think it’s because I’m making better choices for myself. Not that I don’t still eat candy or junk food it’s just not nearly as in excess as it used to be. We have a whole cabinet dedicated to just chocolates or candy. That doesn’t include cookies or cakes or anything else, just chocolate and candy. That would be my husband’s doing. He could eat more candy or chocolate than anyone I know. A whole bag of Halloween chocolates in one sitting wasn’t unheard of. He loved chocolate. Now I wonder if some of those same loves are what cause his stomach cancer? Food for thought.

Day 121 and there’s far less candy in this house but somehow no one seems bothered by that.