That Widow

Day 136 and I said no because word choice matters.

My husband proposed 7 years ago on Christmas. We had come home from a family gathering at his parents and I was in the kitchen doing dishes. My son came in and said “here, momma!” and gave me a ring box and walked away. I was like, wow, ok, that was anticlimactic. My husband then came in and said well? And I said well, what? He said will you be engaged to me? I said, no. He’s like what? I said no, I won’t be engaged to you because that implies we’ll never get married and that’s not what I want in life. He said fine, you and your words. Will you marry me? I said words matter, but yes, I will marry you. And that is the sad story of how I got engaged lol

Looking back I can see how we should not have gotten engaged or even married a little over 5 months later. He was not someone who should have been proposing because of his extracurricular activities but he also knew I was at the point of walking away because that’s what I wanted for my life. He was either going to be all in or I was all out. Life certainly didn’t get easier after that and clearly it didn’t last on earth forever but as I said before, we got it right at the end.

Day 136 and he definitely didn’t get down on one knee.