That Widow

Day 141 and the lord has nothing on my rings.

I think I’m at the point that I have to get my rings resized. When we first got engaged I wore my ring ALL the time, as I’m sure most do, but then learned that wasn’t the best idea for the integrity of my ring. It got snagged on bed sheets and because it sits up higher when I was doing laundry it would get caught in the wet clothes…just all of the things. So, I stopped wearing my rings unless we had company or I leave the house. I started with my engagement ring and when we got married I had 2 solid bands, one on either side of the engagement ring, as my wedding bands. On our first anniversary, that first year was probably the hardest because of how much he was cheating and how public it went mixed with me being pregnant with our second son, SHIT SHOW of epic proportions, he got me a big Neil Lane ring that I love. I say I earned every single diamond in that ring in the first year alone, and then some. People call it getting “stacked” so that’s what I was. After that on his first scans that came back NED, no evidence of disease for cancer, he got me 2 eternity bands to go on either side of the wedding bands. The eternity bands were to signify that he was going to be here and continue to be here, that didn’t work out in our favor but I love them. In total I wear 6 rings on my ring finger. It’s the whole knuckle, it’s a good thing I have big hands with long fingers lol.

Now to the point, they need resized and the eternity bands soldered onto the engagement and wedding bands. It takes about 2 weeks to get sent out, work done, and shipped back. I’m just nervous to send them out. My first engagement ring I was having this same thing done and they messed it up to where they had to give me all new rings, I was so upset! I understand that mistakes happen but that would probably not be in their best interest to have it happen again at this point. I know it needs done because 85 pounds shed causes a lot of slippage to where I was loading the kids the other day and my anniversary ring went flying off. I found it but mini heart attack! I just don’t want anything to happen to these rings, traditionally speaking they obviously mean a lot, but add to it that he’s gone, I have these rings and 6 boys to show for my marriage, they’re irreplaceable. Damned if I do and damned if I don’t I guess.

Day 141 and it’s the rings for me.