Tag: alone
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Day 122
Day 122 and I got a leaderboard shoutout!!! So if you ride Peloton have you ever had your name shouted out by one of the instructors? I did today and it was amazing!!! Just riding along on my bike to nowhere and he said my name…I was like ummm did he just say my name?…
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Day 99
Day 99 and he made it! Sigh of relief, he made it through the school day. I gave #2 his first dose of medicine this morning and I was so worried about him. I let his IS and classroom teacher know so they could let me know of any problems. They let me know that…
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Day 63
Day 63 and I’m struggling with him being free and happy and me being the head of the ship being tossed around the waves. As children were taught heaven is this amazing place where everything is happy and perfect. The person who goes to heaven is made perfect, they have no worries, they’re the happiest…
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Day 61
Day 61 and we took the day off for the kids to be sick, watch football, and eat pizza. All of the kids are sick still and not seeming to get better yet. I know viruses take forever but the kids are just worn out from them. I decided against them playing football today and…
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Day 60
Day 60 and he’s been gone for 2 months of forever. I noticed today that no one gives a shit that he’s been gone for 2 months. Why would anyone care? He was MY person. I chose him every day. They were given him as a son and brother but I chose him. I think…
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Day 50
Day 50 and I’m starting to lose the zell for life around me. I’m not looking forward to anything really. I’m not looking forward to the holidays or birthdays, definitely not anniversaries, just nothing. My mother-in-law said yesterday that had I died there would be no way her son could do what I am doing…
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Day 48
Day 48 and it’s been 1,176 hours without you, without my partner, without the father to my babies. Today it feels like you’ve been gone forever but I’m still stuck in the same grief. I look at our kids and what they’re doing and I’m so sad that he’s missing everything. I know he’s still…
That Widow 