Tag: grief
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Day 153
Day 153 and it’s true. I was reading a book and it wasn’t about death or dying or anything but there was a line that said grief is the price you pay for love. Wow, that hit hard. It’s the truth though. Even if someone doesn’t die but you get divorced or you broke up,…
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Day 150
Day 150 and it was a rough day. For whatever reason I was incredibly sad today. All day I’ve just been off. I can chalk it up to not sleeping enough, baby is going through a sleep regression then he had surgery and he’s teething (read:he’s awake every hour anywhere from whimpering to fully awake),…
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Day 149
Day 149 and it’s the picture before and after. I was looking for a screenshot on my phone if the workout challenge I’m in for the month so I’m scrolling through and after I found what I needed and moved on, it hit me. There are so many pictures of me with my boys. Never…
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Day 147
Day 147 and I still find myself apologizing. I find that I’m still apologizing to my kids for them not having their dad. A lot of the time it’s in my mind but it’s still happening. I know I shouldn’t feel the burden of fault because I didn’t do anything but I think it’s just…
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Day 139
Day 139 and have you ever heard a picture talk? Obviously the picture isn’t talking, I haven’t lost my mind…yet lol, but can you look at a picture and distinctly know what the person is saying in that picture and how it sounds? I do it all of the time. I was looking at my…
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Day 134
Day 134 and taking deep breaths. I don’t understand how others around me can just ignore that he died. I don’t understand how they expect myself and my kids to just move on and continue like it never happened or that it happened awhile ago. Even if it did happen years ago that doesn’t take…
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Day 133
Day 133 and I ate some emotions. Man o man have I ate some emotions today. I fully accept that I did it. I take ownership that my feelings were overwhelming. I did my workout this morning but I also ate lots of homemade cookies and icing. I enjoyed the sweets and acknowledged that while…
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Day 129
Day 129 and that opened a whole can of worms. My sister-in-law was asking about Christmas and if we were coming, short answer no. She then asked if it was because I didn’t want to be around extended family or my mother-in-law because she would be weepy. I said it’s that and so much more.…
That Widow 