Tag: grief
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Day 123
Day 123 and I didn’t even want to make them. My mother-in-law has refused to open the Christmas cards I made this year. She needs to prepare herself. What? As if it was easy for me to make them? I wanted ti say fuck it as I cried looking at the pictures. While I had…
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Day 121
Day 121 and I guess I just never really paid attention. I went to target today and I headed back to their Christmas workshop area. Every year we would all go and look at all of the fun Christmas candy/junk food. We would inevitably buy a crap ton of it and then get more of…
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Day 119
Day 119 and it’s the time has come Today I went in for my appointment to start the process of getting the headstone made. It’s a joint headstone so THAT’S creepy. Let’s start from the beginning. I go in and the man was soooo extremely nice, which was a plus, but the showroom was blah…
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Day 118
Day 118 and I’m going to do it. I made a list of places that I either need to call or go to so that I can get some things handled. I’m terrible when it comes to talking to people, especially a business. I’m just not motivated to speak to others. It’s exhausting navigating social…
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Day 113
Day 113 and we got the errands done. Today we did some running around. We went and picked up the surprise from our favorite bakery for tomorrow. We didn’t do much of anything after going and get the errands done which only took a couple of hours. We stayed at home and I got my…
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Day 104
Day 104 and it’s a shrine Have you ever looked at your surroundings where you live and really thought about how it’s a shrine to your life? As I’m jogging in place I’m looking at all of the pictures, degrees, memorabilia, extended family photos, and I’m just thinking how this is a shrine. We put…
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Day 103
Day 103 and it’s parade day. I had an organization contact me about my husband and they wanted to do a parade in his honor and present myself, and our children, with a check to help with minor expenses. This has been in the works for 2 months now and the day finally came. I…
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Day 97
Day 97 and I’m done fucking counting because it’s not helping. I know it’s another week without him. I know time is still passing, and I know how much time has passed, I’m just done fucking recording it. Those thoughts are not serving me in a productive manner so I’m letting it go. Again, I…
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Day 91
Day 91 and it’s been 3 months since he’s been gone. Don’t worry, no one called, text, messaged, stopped by, or anything else to check on us. I guess that’s just it then. They’ve moved on from it and are back in full swing to their lives but they miss him SO much lol what…
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Day 90
Day 90 and it’s been 13 weeks, 91 days, 2184 hours…it all just keeps adding up. I keep thinking of the time that’s passing and that’s exactly what it’s doing…passing. I’m still here with my 6 boys doing all of the things and he’s still gone, living in the ground as number 2 says. I…
That Widow 