Tag: hurts
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Day 129
Day 129 and that opened a whole can of worms. My sister-in-law was asking about Christmas and if we were coming, short answer no. She then asked if it was because I didn’t want to be around extended family or my mother-in-law because she would be weepy. I said it’s that and so much more.…
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Day 128
Day 128 and it’s a learning experience. I’ve found that people tend to walk on egg shells around me as in they try to censor their conversations. It started when my everyone but me knew my husband was cheating on me and then got progressively worse over the years when he was diagnosed with cancer…
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Day 123
Day 123 and I didn’t even want to make them. My mother-in-law has refused to open the Christmas cards I made this year. She needs to prepare herself. What? As if it was easy for me to make them? I wanted ti say fuck it as I cried looking at the pictures. While I had…
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Day 121
Day 121 and I guess I just never really paid attention. I went to target today and I headed back to their Christmas workshop area. Every year we would all go and look at all of the fun Christmas candy/junk food. We would inevitably buy a crap ton of it and then get more of…
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Day 118
Day 118 and I’m going to do it. I made a list of places that I either need to call or go to so that I can get some things handled. I’m terrible when it comes to talking to people, especially a business. I’m just not motivated to speak to others. It’s exhausting navigating social…
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Day 114
Day 114 and I’m not big on turkey. It’s thanksgiving and I’m thankful for my kids. They keep me going, they keep me waking up for tomorrow. Today’s surprise was a cake that had a scene of 8 dinosaurs eating thanksgiving dinner at a table. I told them to sign it from their dad and…
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Day 113
Day 113 and we got the errands done. Today we did some running around. We went and picked up the surprise from our favorite bakery for tomorrow. We didn’t do much of anything after going and get the errands done which only took a couple of hours. We stayed at home and I got my…
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Day 104
Day 104 and it’s a shrine Have you ever looked at your surroundings where you live and really thought about how it’s a shrine to your life? As I’m jogging in place I’m looking at all of the pictures, degrees, memorabilia, extended family photos, and I’m just thinking how this is a shrine. We put…
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Day 103
Day 103 and it’s parade day. I had an organization contact me about my husband and they wanted to do a parade in his honor and present myself, and our children, with a check to help with minor expenses. This has been in the works for 2 months now and the day finally came. I…
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