Tag: just me
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Day 149
Day 149 and it’s the picture before and after. I was looking for a screenshot on my phone if the workout challenge I’m in for the month so I’m scrolling through and after I found what I needed and moved on, it hit me. There are so many pictures of me with my boys. Never…
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Day 141
Day 141 and the lord has nothing on my rings. I think I’m at the point that I have to get my rings resized. When we first got engaged I wore my ring ALL the time, as I’m sure most do, but then learned that wasn’t the best idea for the integrity of my ring.…
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Day 133
Day 133 and I ate some emotions. Man o man have I ate some emotions today. I fully accept that I did it. I take ownership that my feelings were overwhelming. I did my workout this morning but I also ate lots of homemade cookies and icing. I enjoyed the sweets and acknowledged that while…
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Day 112
Day 112 and it’s the last day of school for the week. The oldest keeps asking if I’m happy for this thing or that thing and it’s hard to explain that no, I’m not really happy. I’m just pushing through each day and trying my best for them. If they’re happy that’s what matters to…
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Day 100
Day 100 and it was party day at pre-k Boys 3 and 4 had a fall party at school today. They had so much fun! I was bummed that I couldn’t volunteer like we usually do. I’ve sent my husband a couple of times and I’be gone a couple of times. It’s always so fun…
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Day 95
Day 95 and it’s the freakin’ weekend…so I’ve decided that the weekends kind of suck. I know, I know, it’s a nice break from the grind but the grind is what’s getting me through right now. When I was much younger, I think like most, the weekends were my playground even though I worked every…
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Day 86
Day 86 and it just never ends. Nothing like going to the basement for something random to find a leaking pipe…on your clothes totes. I don’t know how to fix these things! This is when I would have called him and he would have fixed it or known who to call to fix it. I…
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Day 84
Day 84 and my bike ride was more emotional than I signed up for lol Where my bike is I am in the same room that he took his last earth-side breath in. The wind-chime that was made for us with his face on it is right outside the window and constantly makes noise. I’m…
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Day 83
Day 83 and he’s been gone 12 weeks, 84 days, 2016 hours, 120960 minutes, 7257600 seconds. The time he’s been gone never gets easier. I’m still amazed that he has seriously been gone this long. Weren’t we just laughing about his entrance song when he was coming into our bedroom? Weren’t we just holding hands?…
That Widow 