Tag: lots of feelings
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Day 24
Day 24 and I was asked what I was doing with my husband’s car because another family member would like to have it if I wasn’t doing anything with it. This hurt. This hurt a lot. Why ask? I already told everyone that the car was paid off and my husband wanted it to go…
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Day 19
Day 19 we celebrated the oldest’s birthday at the ballpark with a suite! It have video games and all kinds of food. Friends and family came to celebrate and it was a good time. Bittersweet but still a good time. I feel like everyone is waiting for me to crack and just jump off a…
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Day 18
Day 18 and I made it through the first few days of school. Granted the oldest was the only one to go for the 3 days it was still kind of a routine of getting up and getting our day started. I’m struggling with others being so flamboyant and attention seeking in their “grief”. While…
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Day 15
Day 15 is the night before a new school year starts. 4 of the boys will be going this year and I’m sad. I’m sad he’s missing this. I’m sad he chose to miss this. I’m sad my kids only have me to do everything for them. I’m sad that they’ll only have old pictures…
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Day 14
Day 14, 2 weeks, 336 hours without him. In some ways I’m still waiting for him to come home. It’s almost like he’s been away for work or on a hunting trip, not dead. It’s weird knowing he’s going forever but still hoping he’ll just walk in the door. I was productive today with calling…
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Day 8
Day 8 you sneaky little bia you. I got the 4 older boys’ school supplies and book bags ready for their open houses this week and next. That was something he should have been here for. He would watch the kids so I could get the job done. It was more chaotic this time around…
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Day 6
Day 6 I was in tears as I explained to the refrigerator delivery men that my husband had just died and I didn’t know I had to unhook the water line and shut the water off. I don’t even know how to do that! While they were kind enough to help me with that part…
That Widow 