Tag: miss him
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Day 80
Day 80 and I’m trying to set boundaries. His family asked if I wanted to go on a Christmas train ride with my boys. To most this sounds cute and like a good time, to me that sounds like hell trapped in a train car with 6 boys by myself. Yes, they would be there,…
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Day 74
Day 74 and it was a tough wedding. Today I went to my first wedding since my husband died. It was tough. I cried. I left right after the ceremony. I showed up. It was for a friend of my husband and I and it was beautiful. They had a picture of my husband on…
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Day 72
Day 72 and belt sobbing Britney Spears “Baby one more time” in the school pick up line. We get the new van today so I was clearing the garage so I can park in it again, this will be so nice and helpful with winter coming, and cleaning out the current van. I was talking…
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Day 69
Day 69 and it’s been 10 weeks, 70 days, 1680 hours since he’s been gone. I’ve been thinking about our marriage a lot lately. Our whole relationship really. There were obvious bad parts, obvious struggles. Some I’ve explained here and how they changed who I am as a person. Will I ever be quick to…
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Day 67
Day 67 and I went to another cemetery. I got up and got my ride in on the Peloton and then got the boys breakfast. I had some errands I wanted to run and I had to go see my dad. I try to make it to my dad’s cemetery at least 5 to 6…
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Day 64
Day 64 and I wish every decision wasn’t such an internal battle. The new van has arrived and the dealership is ready for me to come look at it and get a price for my current van. I am having this new van custom to what I want. It has everything I want. I am…
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Day 62
Day 62 and it’s been 9 weeks, 63 days, 1512 hours since he’s been gone. All 6 are still sick but the school called for me to pick up number 2 because he wouldn’t stop coughing. First let me say I totally get it. No one wants a sick kid in their class however, kids…
That Widow 