Tag: not supposed to be this way
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Day 38
Day 38 and I hate celebrating anything without him here. Even a family members birthday I don’t want to record and send the usual video that I would because it would normally start out with him and I saying happy birthday and then cut to each child saying it and then I would send it.…
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Day 33
Day 33 and it’s been a little rough. Last night was by far the hardest night I’ve had since he died. I just could not get myself together. I stood in the shower sobbing and my 2nd and 3rd son were asking if I was sad. It was just a bad night. Tonight I’m working…
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Day 32
Day 32, ahhh college football season is upon us. Just another reminder he’s gone. Typically he would be working at the university for the game and doing special duty. He loved this season. He hated last year when he wasn’t able to work because of his cancer treatments and then preparing for his big surgery.…
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Day 30
Day 30 and I have survived 1 month without him, 720 hours. My kids survived a month, 720 hours, without their dad. We survived, and I hate it. I hate that we have ever been put in this position to survive. Why did I start this blog? It’s a place for me to get my…
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Day 28
Day 28 God laughed when he gave me 6 boys and a dead husband. Boys 2 and 3 are on the same football team and man was it a hard hour long practice tonight. I wanted to scream and cry and just beg my husband for help but none of that can happen. I have…
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