Tag: still gone

• Day 149

  Day 149 and it’s the picture before and after. I was looking for a screenshot on my phone if the workout challenge I’m in for the month so I’m scrolling through and after I found what I needed and moved on, it hit me. There are so many pictures of me with my boys. Never…

  That Widow

  January 10, 2023

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  1 widow, 6 boys, come home, grief, hurts, just me, just sad, just starting the incomplete feeling, kids, lots of feelings, miss him, not supposed to be this way, photos, realizations, still gone, surviving, thatwidow, time

• Day 147

  Day 147 and I still find myself apologizing. I find that I’m still apologizing to my kids for them not having their dad. A lot of the time it’s in my mind but it’s still happening. I know I shouldn’t feel the burden of fault because I didn’t do anything but I think it’s just…

  That Widow

  January 8, 2023

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  1 widow, 6 boys, filling the void, grief, just love them, kids, lots of feelings, miss him, no apology necessary, ope, still gone, thatwidow

• Day 60

  Day 60 and he’s been gone for 2 months of forever. I noticed today that no one gives a shit that he’s been gone for 2 months. Why would anyone care? He was MY person. I chose him every day. They were given him as a son and brother but I chose him. I think…

  That Widow

  October 13, 2022

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  1 widow, 6 boys, alone, choosing him, exercise, flag football, football, grief, heavy heart, hurts, lots of feelings, miss him, not supposed to be this way, pick up and go, restless soul, still gone, surviving, thatwidow, time, two months, weight loss