Tag: suffering
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Day 129
Day 129 and that opened a whole can of worms. My sister-in-law was asking about Christmas and if we were coming, short answer no. She then asked if it was because I didn’t want to be around extended family or my mother-in-law because she would be weepy. I said it’s that and so much more.…
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Day 83
Day 83 and he’s been gone 12 weeks, 84 days, 2016 hours, 120960 minutes, 7257600 seconds. The time he’s been gone never gets easier. I’m still amazed that he has seriously been gone this long. Weren’t we just laughing about his entrance song when he was coming into our bedroom? Weren’t we just holding hands?…
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Day 80
Day 80 and I’m trying to set boundaries. His family asked if I wanted to go on a Christmas train ride with my boys. To most this sounds cute and like a good time, to me that sounds like hell trapped in a train car with 6 boys by myself. Yes, they would be there,…
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Day 68
Day 68 and it’s another football packed day. It was the last game of the regular season today so now we wait a couple of weeks to play in the playoffs/championship games. Both teams are actually really good so we’ll have to see how it shakes out. My in laws have changed churches until our…
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Day 51
Day 51 and welcome to my Ted talk on trauma and being the best friend I can be. My best friend got divorced last week and her ex husband is on vacation this week with a new girl and they’re wearing wedding bands. She’s crushed and automatically starts on the “what is wrong with me”…
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Day 48
Day 48 and it’s been 1,176 hours without you, without my partner, without the father to my babies. Today it feels like you’ve been gone forever but I’m still stuck in the same grief. I look at our kids and what they’re doing and I’m so sad that he’s missing everything. I know he’s still…
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Day 35
Day 35 and we had 2 practices around the same time so each had to miss half. It would have happened the exact same way even if my husband was alive. He would have said he wasn’t driving 2 cars for practices that were right down the street from each other because the other coach…
That Widow 