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Day 60
Day 60 and he’s been gone for 2 months of forever. I noticed today that no one gives a shit that he’s been gone for 2 months. Why would anyone care? He was MY person. I chose him every day. They were given him as a son and brother but I chose him. I think…
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Day 59
Day 59 and I hate asking others to sit with my kids even if they are their grandparents. I had to ask my mother-in-law to sit with some of the boys twice this week as other had appointments and it’s just a pain. People want to “help” or always say “let me know what I…
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Day 58
Day 58 and it was a day full of meetings. I met with 2 of the 4 teachers for parent teacher conferences and took the baby to his well child check up. I was supposed to meet with a 3rd teacher but she never showed up and didn’t message me back for over 2 hours…
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Day 56
Day 56 and the floors got installed but one of the kids puked at school. The floors got put down yesterday and I was hoping for a better experience I guess. They were supposed to be there before or right at 9 and then it ended up being 10:30 before they came. I was expecting…
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Day 55
Day 55 and it’s been 8 weeks, 56 days, 1344 hours without him. It hasn’t gotten easier. I keep repeating that it has to get easier it has to…so far it hasn’t. It’s not hard taking care of the boys, mentally exhausting? Yes, but not hard. It’s hard being without him. It’s hard knowing that…
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Day 54
Day 54 and the baby has a black eye now. We had 2 football games, at the same time again bleh, and both teams won woohoo. I got to see my brother though and I love when we get to hang out. He let his kids go play on the playground and he wasn’t with…
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Day 53
Day 53 and I’m aiming for consistency not perfection. I normally workout every day. I at least ride my bike everyday just to get the blood moving and to have a little time to myself. Nothing drastic but maybe 15-30 minutes depending on the class I take. Then I found these great videos on YouTube…
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Day 52
Day 52 and both older boys are in trouble at school. The oldest was talking after repeated warnings, well I am his mother and every report card I’ve had said talks too much is class sooooo I can’t really be that mad. Obviously I’m going to tell him to be polite and zip it when…
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Day 51
Day 51 and welcome to my Ted talk on trauma and being the best friend I can be. My best friend got divorced last week and her ex husband is on vacation this week with a new girl and they’re wearing wedding bands. She’s crushed and automatically starts on the “what is wrong with me”…
That Widow 