Tag: existing
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Day 133
Day 133 and I ate some emotions. Man o man have I ate some emotions today. I fully accept that I did it. I take ownership that my feelings were overwhelming. I did my workout this morning but I also ate lots of homemade cookies and icing. I enjoyed the sweets and acknowledged that while…
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Day 112
Day 112 and it’s the last day of school for the week. The oldest keeps asking if I’m happy for this thing or that thing and it’s hard to explain that no, I’m not really happy. I’m just pushing through each day and trying my best for them. If they’re happy that’s what matters to…
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Day 50
Day 50 and I’m starting to lose the zell for life around me. I’m not looking forward to anything really. I’m not looking forward to the holidays or birthdays, definitely not anniversaries, just nothing. My mother-in-law said yesterday that had I died there would be no way her son could do what I am doing…
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Day 13
Today, day 13, we went to his grave, we now refer to it as his “condo”, and our second son asked what he, his dad, was doing there. I had to explain that his body was buried in the ground but his spirit would always be with us and around us. He’s 5 so he…
That Widow 