Tag: hurts
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Day 97
Day 97 and I’m done fucking counting because it’s not helping. I know it’s another week without him. I know time is still passing, and I know how much time has passed, I’m just done fucking recording it. Those thoughts are not serving me in a productive manner so I’m letting it go. Again, I…
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Day 91
Day 91 and it’s been 3 months since he’s been gone. Don’t worry, no one called, text, messaged, stopped by, or anything else to check on us. I guess that’s just it then. They’ve moved on from it and are back in full swing to their lives but they miss him SO much lol what…
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Day 90
Day 90 and it’s been 13 weeks, 91 days, 2184 hours…it all just keeps adding up. I keep thinking of the time that’s passing and that’s exactly what it’s doing…passing. I’m still here with my 6 boys doing all of the things and he’s still gone, living in the ground as number 2 says. I…
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Day 89
Day 89 and it wasn’t another ring day but he scored some points! The oldest had his playoffs/ championship games today and they won the first game but couldn’t bring it home on the second. He did score a touchdown and it was the only points his team scored in the second game. He was…
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Day 83
Day 83 and he’s been gone 12 weeks, 84 days, 2016 hours, 120960 minutes, 7257600 seconds. The time he’s been gone never gets easier. I’m still amazed that he has seriously been gone this long. Weren’t we just laughing about his entrance song when he was coming into our bedroom? Weren’t we just holding hands?…
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Day 80
Day 80 and I’m trying to set boundaries. His family asked if I wanted to go on a Christmas train ride with my boys. To most this sounds cute and like a good time, to me that sounds like hell trapped in a train car with 6 boys by myself. Yes, they would be there,…
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Day 72
Day 72 and belt sobbing Britney Spears “Baby one more time” in the school pick up line. We get the new van today so I was clearing the garage so I can park in it again, this will be so nice and helpful with winter coming, and cleaning out the current van. I was talking…
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Day 67
Day 67 and I went to another cemetery. I got up and got my ride in on the Peloton and then got the boys breakfast. I had some errands I wanted to run and I had to go see my dad. I try to make it to my dad’s cemetery at least 5 to 6…
That Widow 