Tag: hurts
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Day 65
Day 65 and number 4 broke his arm and it’s my grandparents 60th wedding anniversary…yay (read sarcasm). Boy 4 is a Frank the Tank, he is built like a linebacker and does some crazy things. You would think he would have broken something sooner than his current 3 years of life. He tripped and fell…
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Day 64
Day 64 and I wish every decision wasn’t such an internal battle. The new van has arrived and the dealership is ready for me to come look at it and get a price for my current van. I am having this new van custom to what I want. It has everything I want. I am…
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Day 60
Day 60 and he’s been gone for 2 months of forever. I noticed today that no one gives a shit that he’s been gone for 2 months. Why would anyone care? He was MY person. I chose him every day. They were given him as a son and brother but I chose him. I think…
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Day 51
Day 51 and welcome to my Ted talk on trauma and being the best friend I can be. My best friend got divorced last week and her ex husband is on vacation this week with a new girl and they’re wearing wedding bands. She’s crushed and automatically starts on the “what is wrong with me”…
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Day 48
Day 48 and it’s been 1,176 hours without you, without my partner, without the father to my babies. Today it feels like you’ve been gone forever but I’m still stuck in the same grief. I look at our kids and what they’re doing and I’m so sad that he’s missing everything. I know he’s still…
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Day 41
Day 41 it’s been 6 weeks, 1008 hours, that he’s been gone. It feels like a lifetime already that he’s been gone. I heard the Foo Fighters song Everlong and just the opening of “hello, I’ve waited here for you, everlong”, I imagine my husband saying this to me when we finally get together again.…
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Day 39
Day 39 and I just don’t know…anything. My father-in-law is pushing me for many different things all at once like they’re no big deal. I’m sure to him they aren’t or they’re just things on a checklist to him. To me it means digging through my husband’s things or forcing myself to make decisions that…
That Widow 