Tag: it all died

• Day 44

  Day 44 and I was gutted a few times today. I know it sounds like I’m just whining my way through this and I guess unless you’ve “been here” you don’t get it, and that’s the whole fucking point. I’m here, doing this, typing all of this, for me, for others, for when life fucking…

  That Widow

  September 27, 2022

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  1 widow, 6 boys, comparison, crying, fuck off, grief, hurts, it all died, Jack and Rose, just sad, kids, lives in the ground, lots of feelings, miss him, not supposed to be this way, thatwidow, would have made room

• Day 38

  Day 38 and I hate celebrating anything without him here. Even a family members birthday I don’t want to record and send the usual video that I would because it would normally start out with him and I saying happy birthday and then cut to each child saying it and then I would send it.…

  That Widow

  September 21, 2022

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  1 widow, 6 boys, birthday, crying, fuck off, grief, hurts, it all died, kids, lots of feelings, no celebrating, not supposed to be this way, so much death, thatwidow, time

• Day 26

  Day 26 and as I folded laundry I realized a lot of others things died, not just my husband. His clothes will never be washed and folded by me again, unless one of the boys decided to wear something. I’ll never have another biological baby, it’s always been on my heart to foster/adopt but who…

  That Widow

  September 9, 2022

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  1 widow, 6 boys, clothes, grief, hurts, it all died, just sad, kids, lots of feelings, realizations, thatwidow, unknowingly, weight loss