Tag: kids
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Day 29
Day 29 and I’m dreading tomorrow. But that’s tomorrow, right now it’s today. The oldest had his first football practice and there were a group of parents that were tailgating. I was astounded. I know my husband would have been losing his shit if he was there lol I’m finding that I’m questioning if I’m…
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Day 27
Day 27 and I got 3 of them to their football meet and greet on time and presentable. It was a win. I questioned today if I pushed him too hard? If I expected too much out of him? If I could have done something different? If I could have pushed to have him seen…
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Day 26
Day 26 and as I folded laundry I realized a lot of others things died, not just my husband. His clothes will never be washed and folded by me again, unless one of the boys decided to wear something. I’ll never have another biological baby, it’s always been on my heart to foster/adopt but who…
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Day 25
Day 25, the house that built me. The song reminds me of him because while he wasn’t a house he did build me from where I was when we met over 12 years ago into who I am now. I also found the original fire stick remote that we had been searching for and ended…
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Day 24
Day 24 and I was asked what I was doing with my husband’s car because another family member would like to have it if I wasn’t doing anything with it. This hurt. This hurt a lot. Why ask? I already told everyone that the car was paid off and my husband wanted it to go…
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Day 19
Day 19 we celebrated the oldest’s birthday at the ballpark with a suite! It have video games and all kinds of food. Friends and family came to celebrate and it was a good time. Bittersweet but still a good time. I feel like everyone is waiting for me to crack and just jump off a…
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Day 17
Day 17 I felt terrible because I couldn’t walk our kindergartner into his first day of school. I had to many others in the van to be able to leave them to take him. He still ended up having a great day but it was hurtful to me. Going through clothes tonight to try and…
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Day 16
Day 16 was the first day of school for 3 of the 4 going this year and I just smiled through the tears. A mom walked up to me and asked if I was eating because I was looking real thin. I’m like yep, I’m also still breastfeeding, and chasing my 6 children alone now.…
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Day 14
Day 14, 2 weeks, 336 hours without him. In some ways I’m still waiting for him to come home. It’s almost like he’s been away for work or on a hunting trip, not dead. It’s weird knowing he’s going forever but still hoping he’ll just walk in the door. I was productive today with calling…
That Widow 