Tag: lots of feelings
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Day 37
Day 37 and I’m wondering when you die and go to heaven if you get to meet the famous people who have died or if it’s still separated? Random I know but things I wonder about lol I got the pictures today from the funeral and was just crying while looking at them. They’re beautiful.…
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Day 36
Day 36 and I got the video from his service. It’s beautiful, breathtaking, amazing, and heartbreaking. Those days and time leading up to it were such a blur or activity. Just trying to keep everything and everyone together but also trying to wrap my head around him being gone. Making sure my kids were ok…
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Day 35
Day 35 and we had 2 practices around the same time so each had to miss half. It would have happened the exact same way even if my husband was alive. He would have said he wasn’t driving 2 cars for practices that were right down the street from each other because the other coach…
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Day 30
Day 30 and I have survived 1 month without him, 720 hours. My kids survived a month, 720 hours, without their dad. We survived, and I hate it. I hate that we have ever been put in this position to survive. Why did I start this blog? It’s a place for me to get my…
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Day 27
Day 27 and I got 3 of them to their football meet and greet on time and presentable. It was a win. I questioned today if I pushed him too hard? If I expected too much out of him? If I could have done something different? If I could have pushed to have him seen…
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Day 26
Day 26 and as I folded laundry I realized a lot of others things died, not just my husband. His clothes will never be washed and folded by me again, unless one of the boys decided to wear something. I’ll never have another biological baby, it’s always been on my heart to foster/adopt but who…
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Day 25
Day 25, the house that built me. The song reminds me of him because while he wasn’t a house he did build me from where I was when we met over 12 years ago into who I am now. I also found the original fire stick remote that we had been searching for and ended…
That Widow 