Tag: time
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Day 62
Day 62 and it’s been 9 weeks, 63 days, 1512 hours since he’s been gone. All 6 are still sick but the school called for me to pick up number 2 because he wouldn’t stop coughing. First let me say I totally get it. No one wants a sick kid in their class however, kids…
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Day 61
Day 61 and we took the day off for the kids to be sick, watch football, and eat pizza. All of the kids are sick still and not seeming to get better yet. I know viruses take forever but the kids are just worn out from them. I decided against them playing football today and…
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Day 60
Day 60 and he’s been gone for 2 months of forever. I noticed today that no one gives a shit that he’s been gone for 2 months. Why would anyone care? He was MY person. I chose him every day. They were given him as a son and brother but I chose him. I think…
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Day 58
Day 58 and it was a day full of meetings. I met with 2 of the 4 teachers for parent teacher conferences and took the baby to his well child check up. I was supposed to meet with a 3rd teacher but she never showed up and didn’t message me back for over 2 hours…
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Day 49
Day 49 and I wished for my youngest to never grow up so he didn’t have to understand that his dad was gone. I’m both blessed and cursed that only my oldest truly knows what it means that his dad died. Eventually they’ll all know and it will be like a new trauma for them.…
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Day 45
Day 45 and I finally decided to get the new flooring done. I know it doesn’t seem like a big deal to some to get new flooring done but in our house it’s a HUGE deal. My husband is a penny pincher, OCD, spreadsheet loving, needs to think on it for at least 5 years…
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Day 41
Day 41 it’s been 6 weeks, 1008 hours, that he’s been gone. It feels like a lifetime already that he’s been gone. I heard the Foo Fighters song Everlong and just the opening of “hello, I’ve waited here for you, everlong”, I imagine my husband saying this to me when we finally get together again.…
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Day 36
Day 36 and I got the video from his service. It’s beautiful, breathtaking, amazing, and heartbreaking. Those days and time leading up to it were such a blur or activity. Just trying to keep everything and everyone together but also trying to wrap my head around him being gone. Making sure my kids were ok…
That Widow 