Tag: realizations
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Day 54
Day 54 and the baby has a black eye now. We had 2 football games, at the same time again bleh, and both teams won woohoo. I got to see my brother though and I love when we get to hang out. He let his kids go play on the playground and he wasn’t with…
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Day 49
Day 49 and I wished for my youngest to never grow up so he didn’t have to understand that his dad was gone. I’m both blessed and cursed that only my oldest truly knows what it means that his dad died. Eventually they’ll all know and it will be like a new trauma for them.…
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Day 45
Day 45 and I finally decided to get the new flooring done. I know it doesn’t seem like a big deal to some to get new flooring done but in our house it’s a HUGE deal. My husband is a penny pincher, OCD, spreadsheet loving, needs to think on it for at least 5 years…
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Day 37
Day 37 and I’m wondering when you die and go to heaven if you get to meet the famous people who have died or if it’s still separated? Random I know but things I wonder about lol I got the pictures today from the funeral and was just crying while looking at them. They’re beautiful.…
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Day 34
Day 34 and I’m constantly thinking about running away somewhere just to get away. Running away sounds bad so more like a vacation but one where you just pack up and go. Guess what you can’t do with 6 kids with 4 of them in school? Just pack up and go. I would say I’ve…
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Day 30
Day 30 and I have survived 1 month without him, 720 hours. My kids survived a month, 720 hours, without their dad. We survived, and I hate it. I hate that we have ever been put in this position to survive. Why did I start this blog? It’s a place for me to get my…
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Day 26
Day 26 and as I folded laundry I realized a lot of others things died, not just my husband. His clothes will never be washed and folded by me again, unless one of the boys decided to wear something. I’ll never have another biological baby, it’s always been on my heart to foster/adopt but who…
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Day 17
Day 17 I felt terrible because I couldn’t walk our kindergartner into his first day of school. I had to many others in the van to be able to leave them to take him. He still ended up having a great day but it was hurtful to me. Going through clothes tonight to try and…
That Widow 